When I was about 14 years old, before I had taken drivers ed, my mother pulled over to the side of the road in a residential area and told me to drive home. We were maybe a couple of minutes from the house, more than a few blocks, but not too far. I didn’t want to. I drove a bit. I don’t remember getting out, so I don’t know how much I drove. I simply remember her pulling over and me not wanting to drive. That is what stuck with me.
I took drivers education and aced it. I drove along with my guidance counselor/drivers ed driving teacher, and I did well. I remember stopping and him wondering why I stopped. I had seen a stop sign he couldn’t, behind a bush. I was cautious and very aware of my surroundings. But when I went to take the test, I failed. I did really well during the test driving all around the city, but at some point, I was asked to back into a spot. I didn’t understand the directions completely, I wasn’t sure if he wanted me to back up in the street and pull into the spot headfirst, or back into the spot. So I did it clumsily, and hit a flag, which could have been a car theoretically and thus I failed.
I think I failed because I didn’t want my license. I think it clouded my perception. I could have at the very least, took a breather and asked him to clarify before I attempted to just “do something.” I think if I had been excited to drive, I would have been in a much different mindset.
I was taking the test because I was “supposed to” rather than because I wanted to. It would be years before I tried again. I went off to college for four years. When I got home, once again I was told to do it, but I also felt like I needed to get it, so I had more desire than when I was younger. I passed the first time I tried. I hadn’t had much driving practice between my failure and the passing. That’s another reason I think it was simply my mindset.
You might wonder why I’m writing about this. Everything in our life is a reflection of what is going on inside of us. Your driving can say a lot about you. I bet they could make a quiz asking about your driving style and have somewhat accurate results for what your take on life is also.
My astrological report concerning my struggles in life says that I am slow to do things. That is quite accurate. I like to take my time. I was always the last person to finish eating, etc. The struggle with that is that I feel like I am always lagging behind. People want me to hurry up a lot. This is a large theme in my life.
Concerning driving, I was slow to start as I mentioned. I have a bit of fear of it, worried I’ll get hurt in some way. I also drive on the slower side at times. My drivers ed instructor said it was no big deal if you go 5 miles above the speed limit, but no more. So, I’ll do that. I’ve never had an issue with that. And I did catch myself speeding the other day. But between the fast lane and slow lane, I’d rather stay in the slow lane than ducking in between cars, and if the weather is bad, I will drive very slowly. I often feel like people behind me want to pass me, and I don’t mind if they do. In fact, I appreciate it when they do. I will also wait longer for cars to pass before turning into the lane behind them, so I’m not in front of them slowing them down.
What does this say about life? That I’m slow to start getting into the good parts, and I’m overly fearful, cautious or careful, and once in a while can lose my head and go too fast into a good thing. But I also really hate slowing others down. I detest feeling as if others need me to go faster, like I’m letting them down in some way. This is very accurate to my life.
As I have gotten over my fears, I have been more likely to go faster (following the 5 over the speed limit or speed of traffic) and not be as worried while driving. In life I’ve gotten over my fears and am less worried about failing. They also happened around the same time. Of course, as you gain confidence in one thing, like driving, it can help you gain confidence in yourself as a whole to handle whatever comes.
What Does Your Vehicle Say About You?
I do not have all the answers. But I do believe what vehicle we drive says a lot about us if we could see the correlations. What type of vehicle you drive, and what goes wrong with it, are all likely saying a lot about you. Wouldn’t you like to know what it’s saying?
As I was turning the steering wheel the other day and it was moaning and whining, I thought about that time I stood up after physical therapy and sighed. My dad heard me and suddenly he thought my back pain was worse than he had originally perceived it to be. I think I was more tired than in pain, but yes, I moan, cry out, or sigh when I get up at times. I forgot he was there. I probably would have not made a noise had I remembered he was in the house that day. Yes, it hurts when I stand up from a seated position. When my car is getting ready to move directions it moans. When I get ready to move directions I moan. Is it correlated? What do you think? I think it probably is.
My Car, Myself
A Dictionary of the Psychological Link to You And Your Car Issues
Michael J. Lincoln, Ph. D. wrote this book, “My Car, Myself” to give people the chance to understand the correlation.
I bought this book. I only have a few problems with my car. I recently fixed one. I can look those up and see if it seems accurate or not. But I can’t tell if every dictionary term in this book would be accurate for others. And, I think, like a dream, the interpretation could or should be best done by the person having the issue. Like I mentioned with the moaning steering wheel.
I will share a couple of examples, but I don’t want to share too much from the book, so that it takes away revenue from Michael. Below is some of the dictionary entry for Steering Wheel. Before this entry is Power Steering, and after there’s more about Steering Wheel Anti-Theft Device, and Steering Wheel Lock. So there are a few entries for the wheel. I don’t think those others are relevant to a wheel whining though.
Steering Wheel
“Direction-determination disruption.” They are having real problems with conflicted motivations, dysfunctional decision processes, and self-direction difficulties. They can’t arrive at an effective goal-selection or intention-implementation process at present. It is the result of severely dysfunctional family distortions of their direction-determination system.
They are being given intense feedback that they simply must take charge of their life, yet they can no longer afford to be at the mercy of the family’s disruptive processes.
Steering Wheel Position Adjustment
“Generalized Discomfort.” No matter how hard they try, they just can’t seem to find a smoothly functioning place to be coming from in their direction-determination.
Many internal conflicts and dysfunctional intervention programs are arising from their formative family experience, with the result that there is just no workable position from which they can operate. They are being promoted to work on clearing the dysfunctional self-direction distortions generated by their formative experience.
You can see some similarities between those that come from the “steering wheel” by itself. But they are slightly different. I know that I have conflicts between the way I was brought up and what I “should” be doing for a living (according to family). It was assumed that I should go to college and get a stable job working for someone else. But I have a desire to work for myself, and with that comes with (what looks like to others) instability.
I think if you can have faith in the law of attraction, you can feel stable in those laws of the universe regardless of what your job is. But trust me, that conflicts with the way I grew up. I can see how this definition of the problem could say something about me.
I also want to point out that I’m working to fix my back pain (with the physical therapy). It’s probably good to point out that after my real good physical therapy session, the next day I had a really stressful day at work. I wrote about it on my other Substack publication, The Drama of It All.
I learned from that experience that I am more capable than I usually give myself credit for. I can see that healing myself physically, is causing emotional healing. And, it could be that when I am completely healed, I will manifest a different vehicle (without this trouble) or get it fixed somehow.
I also had a problem with my car making loud noise because something was wrong with the muffler. Here’s that definition.
Muffler (Absorbs the loud sound of the internal combustion engine explosions that provide the power)
“Fear farts.” Something in their current situation is generating a gripping anxiety and as yet indigestible ideas, along with a sense of responsibility-overload and the associated resentment.
They have a considerable amount of uneasiness and agitated anticipation of aggravating developments. They are implication-catastrophizing and operating from generalized dread. These are vague and intangible fears about things that “go bump in the night,” the “nameless terrors of which they dare not speak.”
It came from a “magical mystery tour” family experience in which they could never tell when and what piece of excrement would come off the wall at them, just that it would.
They need to develop a stronger sense of confidence in themselves and of safety in the world through building up their ability to be “at cause” instead of “at effect.”
I grew up with a lady taking care of me and my brother who would have fits at doing something innocuous. If something wasn’t done the way she particularly wanted it done, then I would get yelled at terribly. I tried to become a “mind-reader” (which is a cognitive distortion). I was walking on eggshells around her. But that didn’t help.
There was this one time her clothes were in the washer machine. I wanted to do a load of laundry. I took hers out, and I could have put them in the dryer, but I worried, “What if they shrink? What if I put them on the ‘wrong’ setting and she yells at me?” So I figured, since they would be wet all day anyway, I could just set them on the washer, do my load, and put them back in the washer. No harm would have been done. But I still got yelled at for not simply doing them for her. There was no way to win besides just not doing my laundry at all.
I definitely have experience where I “could never tell when and what piece of excrement would come off the wall at (me), just that it would,” in my background. I’m having to heal myself from that anxiety. I don’t blame her, as it probably started before I “attracted” her into my life. But I know I have had this issue for a long, long time. I know about catastrophizing because I did it and can once in a while still do it. At least I recognize it now and can talk myself out of it a bit.
I am happy to report the muffler problem was fixed and it was a lot cheaper than I expected. I also want to note that after fixing that muffler problem, I started my physical therapy, and had that day at work that made me realize how capable I am even when life throws excrement at me.
Oil Leak
“Running out of steam.” They are feeling run down and increasingly amotivational recently. It is the result of a co-dependent and/or “serve-aholic” pattern, in which they fail to take their own needs into sufficient consideration. It began in a demanding dysfunctional family. They are in need of learning where their responsibilities leave off, and those of the world around them begin.
Well, hell, that’s why I write about the drama triangle and am so damned interested in it. I know I used to be a “rescuer” trying to save people, taking on more responsibility than I should have, with the weight of the world on my shoulders. What I love about the law of attraction is that I can let go of that feeling of needing to be responsible for others and their life. Although, I’ll admit, you could theoretically still have that feeling within the law of attraction perspective, if you think you’re attracting all the “evil” in the world and it’s “all on you” to clean it up.
My car is still leaking oil. So, I suppose I’m still struggling with this in some ways. Sometimes I feel as if I “should” do more than my fair share. I’m aware of it. Sometimes I feel like I should write articles because people are subbed and paying me money. I want them to get what they’re paying for. And I want to do a great job with my other gigs, etc. But this is why I meditate. This is why I study the drama triangle and am so laser focused on it and personal responsibility. It’s why I wrote that it’s good to take care of ourselves first and that doesn’t make us narcissistic. It makes us loving. But, here I am writing, and not relaxing today. It will take time to completely heal. But I know I’m doing a lot better than I used to.
Well, that was 3 out of 3 being pretty accurate to me. If you’re interested in this subject, check out his book. It’s not on Amazon and I get no referral money from it.
Physical Symptoms & Signs
And if you’re interested in finding out more about what your physical body aches and pains may be about, I would suggest looking up those terms with “German New Medicine” attached to the key words in a search engine. I discussed how I manifested Hypothyroidism in this video. I read through some of the German New Medicine perspective on the thyroid and what the spiritual or mental implications or causes are. Hypothyroidism can lead to a lack of energy. Isn’t it interesting that the oil leak was about “running out of steam” too and I manifested both?
Car Accidents
I once mentioned on Notes that I manifested an accident. I also watched other people get into a vehicular accident and it seemed to be like they were magnetically drawn to each other. There are pages in his book on accidents, because the definition depends on what part of the car is getting hit.
When I got hit, I was in a bad mood. I wasn’t thinking clearly. It definitely reminds me of that time in the driver’s test when I hit that flag. My mindset was in a different place than I usually am. I watched the truck coming, and still drove out, like I couldn’t do anything else. I know what it feels like when magnets are attracted to each other. It felt like there was something else moving me.
I once wrote about how our thoughts may be magnetic in a sense. I don’t think I had to have a car accident. I think I had control over my thoughts and I let myself get into a bad mindset which then attracted the accident. But I was in a completely different mental place back then. I bring it up because I think we all attract accidents or repel them by our vibe (mental state).
I hope you enjoyed reading this. Do you have car or truck problems now? Wondering what they mean? You can ask yourself in meditation and you might just get an answer to pop into your head. I don’t think it’s supposed to be difficult to figure out what these things mean. I think they’re supposed to be figure-outable.
I think they’re simply signs that we should work on ourselves to heal. But so often people simply try to fix the external without fixing the internal issues at all. Then more issues pop up again and again. I think that’s why we keep creating new diseases. As soon as the medical community thinks they’ve solved something, a new one pops up, because people are not healing themselves from within first.